I was reading back over the last entries and realized just how good it felt to write about what was happening in my life. The biggest irnony for me is that I struggled with family, career, and work life balance and here I sit over a year later failing miserably at all of it.

I chose to be more career focused, took a big promotion, will likely make VP in the next 6 months but there was a cost to it. Time away from the family, time away from me, work acting like the number one in my life with a real cost to everyone.

Blogging makes me honest, I'd step away from it for that very reason - panic attacks about preganancy, no blogging. Work picking up the pace and feeling overwhelming - no blogging. So the solution to this is either get therapy which i'm not ready for yet or make time in my life for things that help me get or keep my head on straight. Sometimes the responsiblity of writing clever, well thought out words feels like a chore, like another "thing" that needs crossed off my list.

But, where else are these thoughts supposed to go - they need to squish out somewhere. This week is about committment to more than just my job.

Committment to my husband.
Committment to myself
Committment to my family
Committment to my health
Committment to my friends.

I need to reread this one from time to time so I make sure I get it, don't forget it, and remember that its when I'm balanced that I'm at my best.